A Good News

Got a call from a fren. Her message was to spread out good news. That her worries turned into something good. Got accepted by the one she loves. Actually expected what her answer was.... REALLY HAPPY FOR HER! CONGRATS!

But now sitting at my desk, thinking about what she said. Makes me think of myself. When will I get the one I love too???

Recently PJ asked me a few questions about how I felt about TT. The questions can't totally remember but something like:

1. What I felt about TT?
2. How do I feel when I'm with TT, example like going for kopi with him, talking to him?
3. Do I feel excited when he sms or when he calls?
4. Do I feel like I wanted to see him when I can't?
5. Do I feel like my heart is thumping when I'm around him?

Answers:
1. Nothing special. No sparks
2. Normal lor.
3. No leh
4. No leh
5. No leh

Haha.. From the answers it's quite obvious already. Maybe I don't have whatever feelings I should have it's coz I haven't really got to know him well enough yet. Also whenever he asked me out, there's always something blocking (as I told the 2 gals). Like something will be in the way when we want to go out. It's either he asked me after I've had dinner or I'm out with my frens... etc. Even when he was suppose to come & fetch me one day, it didn't happen as he didn't know where my office was.

PJ told me that it's fated that we are friends, but not fated yet to be anything more than that. I agree too. Also my "tian-zhu" is suppose to attract people and not "chase" ppl away.. hehe

I was telling J that it could be coz I don't know TT well thus having not sure feelings. And the above all don't count. Could be due to the lack of confidence that I have to try on new things. Meaning though sometimes I would love to go out with TT but there's always something that I fear.

I think once i conquer that fear, I'll be able to move on.